My family and I just got back from a week at the beach. I LOVE the beach. To me it is heaven on earth. I could sit and watch the waves all day. I feel closest to God there. I realize how big God is. The vast ocean, sky, and that God knows every grain of sand. It just amazes me. Then to think that a God who hung the moon and the stars over this beautiful scene cares so much about us. WOW.
I was feeling very frazzled when we arrived. Thankfully my kids are at easier ages and I was able to actually relax. I feel like the person I used to be a long time ago, not the short tempered impatient over exhausted shell of a human being I transformed into over the last few weeks. YES the one who wants to be Ruth Graham Jr. (see prior blog entry) actually felt more like Roseanne Barr in her sitcom "Roseanne".
I spent quality time with God on my walks and when I my lounged in a hammock (heavenly!). I realized His love for me flaws and all. He is merciful and forgiving and He restores and refreshes! He revealed a scripture that took on a new fresh meaning to me. THANK YOU LORD!!
Maybe you can't get away for a week at the beach or in the mountains or where your "heaven on earth" is. God is everywhere though and He will meet you where you are. Hide in the closet or bathroom and call on Him. Turn off your radio while you drive or your iPOD when you workout. He will come through. I forget that when I get swamped with the duties of life. When that happens everyone around me suffers and I really don't like myself much.
No matter how hectic or crazy things can get, make time for God. I will be spending some time in John 15 . Realize you need to be connected to the vine! Understand that you did not choose God. He chose YOU and appointed you to bear fruit, fruit that will last (John 15:16). A plant apart from the vine doesn't bear anything. He chose you with all of your flaws and shortcomings. He is merciful and loving and forgiving when you fail. Dwell on the truth that He loves you and even if your attitude and actions resemble something from a scary movie you can ask Him to forgive you and you can start over again. Just remember to stay connected!